I see your broken pieces, and I want to gather them up and put you back together again. That's what I do because I am a healer. Because my heart is so full of love that I long to give away. That's what I have done over and over again. There is a long list of failed attempts.
It has taken me years to finally figure it out. I cannot fix the broken people. Yes, I can give them comfort and a temporary fix. It may last for a night, a few months, years, decades....but in the end they are still broken, and I am left with a shattered heart. Left to put myself back together once again.
I don't know why I am drawn to the souls who are so broken. Why my eyes meet theirs across a room full of people, or deep in the forest, or on a crowded city street, and we know each other. This is not a bad thing, reconnecting with my soul family, here on Earth. But I need to go about it differently. I need to let go of the notion of ownership. There is no "soul mate" that I need to spend my life with. We all belong to each other, and yet no one can own another. This is where I fall....in believing I have found my other half, when really I am whole all by myself.
This time, when I see your eyes so full of pain, I will still open my arms to you. I will let LOVE pour from my heart, and you can choose whether or not you want to receive it. But I will not be your "bandaid." I will not add you to my list of projects. I will not give myself away.
I will acknowledge the pain that we both may feel, kiss the broken parts so that you might see them, show you how to glue them back together yourself. I will hold onto my own spirit and let it's strength guide me. I will still say, "I love you," because I do. Because that is what I am: LOVE.
2 comments:
Lovely. <3
Yes, I know of someone else who is drawn to the broken ones; it is, indeed, difficult to realize that they need to fix themselves. You can help, but the cure comes from within them, rather than from outside. I am happy you have grown and learned this, and yet are still willing to extend love to others. Bless your giving heart!
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