These are the people in my life that I am very thankful for:
Frank~ for giving me two beautiful daughters and letting me fulfill my dream of motherhood.
Julene and Lacey~ for so many years of joy...for the precious children you were and the beautiful, strong women you have become.
Madison Sage~ for bringing so much joy to so many people....for being so amazing!
My parents~ for being the best they knew how to be...for loving me unconditionally.
My brothers~ each so different, yet each a gift to this planet.
David~ for opening doors in my life so that I can now receive the gifts the universe has for me.
Ter'e~ for being my dearest friend all of these years, through thick and thin.
Gary~ for singing your way into my heart so many years ago.
Richard~ for providing me with so many great vacations, giving me the chance to see the world...for introducing me and my family to naturism...for your generosity.
Matt~ for all the times you made me laugh...for touching my spirit. I miss you dear friend.
David & Dennice~ for being such kind people...I could not ask for better bosses....for appreciating me.
Fred~ for being so full of life and love...for seeing, above all, the beautiful soul inside of me.
Jeff~ for your loving, peaceful ways...for crossing paths with me in this lifetime...for the adventures ahead.
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
New York City
I was in New York earlier this month, visiting my friend Richard.
Usually I bring someone with me, but his time I went by myself.
My first day there I went to my favorite art museum, The Guggenhiem. The building itself is a piece of art designed by Frank Lloyd Wright, built in the shape of a big spiral. I get so much pleasure from seeing paintings by Rembrandt, Monet, Renoir, Picasso.....so long after their lives, and graditude for the gifts they created and left behind.
After a couple of hours in the museum I rode a bus down 5th Avenue and spent some time in Central Park, people watching, went into FAO Schwartz toy store, then to Richard's office further down 5th Ave.
We walked crosstown to the Hudson River and along the Chelsea Piers.
We rode the Long Island Railroad back to Queens, to Richard's apartment in Forest Hills, and had a dinner party there that night.
After a couple of hours in the museum I rode a bus down 5th Avenue and spent some time in Central Park, people watching, went into FAO Schwartz toy store, then to Richard's office further down 5th Ave.
We walked crosstown to the Hudson River and along the Chelsea Piers.
We rode the Long Island Railroad back to Queens, to Richard's apartment in Forest Hills, and had a dinner party there that night.
Saturday I rented a car and we drove to Coney Island, Williamsburg, Rockaway...a few places I have never seen before. I had a Nathan's Famous hotdog while at Coney Island...how's that for a classic Brooklyn experience? (The above photo is me at Coney Island)
Sunday we drove to Goodlands, a naturist place in New Jersey. We brought three others with us, and enjoyed an afternoon of sunshine, swimming and conversation.
On my last full day in the city I went to the Museum of Natural History, to finaly get to see dinosaur bones! After several hours there I rode a bus to Times Square, to soak up some of the energy and excitement there, had a beer at the Hard Rock Cafe, then met Richard for dinner at Ruth's Chris Steak house.
I flew home on Tuesday....it was a great vacation!
Three generations of naturists
Last month I went to Palm Springs, to our favorite naturist resort, Desert Shadows. My daughter Lacey and granddaughter Madison went with me. Maddi just turned four, and this is her seventh time there! How wonderful that we can enjoy the pure naturist lifestyle, three generations together.
Watching a child in a nudist setting confirms how truly natural and free we can be. They see no wrong in being naked, nor should any of us!
Part of what I love about being a naturist is that it takes me back to that feeling of innocence that we all felt as young children, before out parents and society made us believe it was wrong to be nude.
The feeling of the warm sun all over my body, relating to other people so honestly and openly, and enjoying that sense of freedom....those are the true pleasures of naturism!
Watching a child in a nudist setting confirms how truly natural and free we can be. They see no wrong in being naked, nor should any of us!
Part of what I love about being a naturist is that it takes me back to that feeling of innocence that we all felt as young children, before out parents and society made us believe it was wrong to be nude.
The feeling of the warm sun all over my body, relating to other people so honestly and openly, and enjoying that sense of freedom....those are the true pleasures of naturism!
Sunday, May 13, 2007
My Trip to Breitenbush
Sunday, April 29
I left home this morning at 9 am.
The closer I got to Breitenbush, the more life slowed down, from driving on the interstate, to a two-lane highway, and finally a gravel road. And my mind also slowed. The deeper into the forest I traveled the more my mind and heart felt at peace.
I arrived for my personal retreat at the end of a women's weekend. There were women everywhere and the place was full of beautiful female energy.
The grounds here are so full of life and yet so calm.
I cannot settle into my cabin for a few hours, so I soaked in one of the rock-lined hot spring pools. It felt so good to feel the hot water, bubbling up from the Earth, surrounding me with its warmth. I felt my anxieties begin to drain out of me.
It is my hope that the time I spend here will be a healing experience and help me to find the answers to the questions in my life.
Sitting in the hot pool of water, I closed my eyes and thought about the man who has been in my heart so much~ how good it feels to be with him, how happy I am when I'm by his side. And then my thoughts of him became the following words:
It's OK for me to love you,
But you are not the answer.
I am the answer!
Still Sunday...3:15 pm
I just got out of a hot pool again. I have only been here for a few hours and already I feel a sense of peace.
How I wish I could live my life in this kind of environment. To get a piece of forested land and create a haven where my family and loved ones could live. To share the beauty of nature and the love of God with others. I pray for my wish's fruitation, for my reasons are not selfish, but of love and a strong desire to give to others. I will visualize and pray for this dream to come true.
8:30 pm
Had another soak before dinner ~ a wonderful vegetarian meal~ then again after!
Walking back through the forest a deer crossed in front of me. It stopped and looked at me for quite a while, as I told it how beautiful it was. We stood not ten feet apart.
They say it's bad luck for a black cat to cross your path, but a deer in the forest?
That's got to be good luck!
I am in my cabin for the night. I turned on the radiator after dinner, and now it is all warmed with geothermal heat. What a cozy little cabin. How fortunate that I have it to myself!
Monday, April 30
This morning at breakfast I sat with two men I'd met in the hot pool yesterday.
One of them, Fred, told me just the things I needed to hear. He confirmed the feelings I have been having: that it's not wrong to love, to share pleasure with others. The "wrong" would be in not doing it. That if you feel a connection with another person you should follow your feelings and let them lead you wherever they go.
I don't remember the words he used, but they spoke directly to my heart, filled my eyes with tears, and gave my soul a confirmation.
I thanked him for saying just what I needed to hear.
After lunch I walked down to the Breitenbush river~ just a short ways down a trail and across a footbridge. I laid on a flat rock that ran down to the water, took off my shirt, and felt the warmth of the sun on my breasts. The sound of the river rushing by filled me with such peace and gratitude. Every once in a while the water would splash up onto my feet, as if to say hello. What a beautiful connection!
Tuesday, May 1
Last night after dinner I decided to play the piano in the lodge library. My new friends, Fred and Jeff wanted to hear me. Soon the room was full of people listening to me play and sing. I am so thankful for my gift of music and for the chance to share it in a place as beautiful as this. I played for one and a half hours. It felt so great.
Then Jeff, Fred and I went to the medicine wheel tubs.
I have had such a great time getting to know them. Jeff comes here a couple of times a year, flying in from Dallas, Texas. He is my age, and so full of peaceful, spiritual energy. Just before coming here this time he was at a workshop with the Dalai Lama, whom he has seen many times.
Jeff and I connected on a humorous level and have laughed a lot together.
Fred is older than me and lives in Portland. He is a free spirit who has truly learned to love life.
After we were in the tubs awhile Jeff and I walked up to the lodge to get their friend Lynn, who is teaching a three-day workshop here. We all visited in the tubs until midnight.
I had another restful night of sleep here in the forest.
This morning after breakfast Lynn played a couple of songs on the piano in the lodge lobby. She is an amazing pianist. Both were songs she wrote. The second one had a line that spoke directly to me. She said:
I've always had my spirit
But I forgot about my soul.
That certainly describes my feelings in my life right now!
After one last soak, Jeff and Fred had to get on their way. How blessed I am to have met the two of them. I know people come into our lives for a reason, and at the right time. Surely these two are blessings in mine.
We hugged goodbye, and though I have only known them less than 48 hours, it felt like leaving long time friends.
I will stay here a while longer and then make the three-hour journey back home.
What an amazing retreat it has been!
I left home this morning at 9 am.
The closer I got to Breitenbush, the more life slowed down, from driving on the interstate, to a two-lane highway, and finally a gravel road. And my mind also slowed. The deeper into the forest I traveled the more my mind and heart felt at peace.
I arrived for my personal retreat at the end of a women's weekend. There were women everywhere and the place was full of beautiful female energy.
The grounds here are so full of life and yet so calm.
I cannot settle into my cabin for a few hours, so I soaked in one of the rock-lined hot spring pools. It felt so good to feel the hot water, bubbling up from the Earth, surrounding me with its warmth. I felt my anxieties begin to drain out of me.
It is my hope that the time I spend here will be a healing experience and help me to find the answers to the questions in my life.
Sitting in the hot pool of water, I closed my eyes and thought about the man who has been in my heart so much~ how good it feels to be with him, how happy I am when I'm by his side. And then my thoughts of him became the following words:
It's OK for me to love you,
But you are not the answer.
I am the answer!
Still Sunday...3:15 pm
I just got out of a hot pool again. I have only been here for a few hours and already I feel a sense of peace.
How I wish I could live my life in this kind of environment. To get a piece of forested land and create a haven where my family and loved ones could live. To share the beauty of nature and the love of God with others. I pray for my wish's fruitation, for my reasons are not selfish, but of love and a strong desire to give to others. I will visualize and pray for this dream to come true.
8:30 pm
Had another soak before dinner ~ a wonderful vegetarian meal~ then again after!
Walking back through the forest a deer crossed in front of me. It stopped and looked at me for quite a while, as I told it how beautiful it was. We stood not ten feet apart.
They say it's bad luck for a black cat to cross your path, but a deer in the forest?
That's got to be good luck!
I am in my cabin for the night. I turned on the radiator after dinner, and now it is all warmed with geothermal heat. What a cozy little cabin. How fortunate that I have it to myself!
Monday, April 30
This morning at breakfast I sat with two men I'd met in the hot pool yesterday.
One of them, Fred, told me just the things I needed to hear. He confirmed the feelings I have been having: that it's not wrong to love, to share pleasure with others. The "wrong" would be in not doing it. That if you feel a connection with another person you should follow your feelings and let them lead you wherever they go.
I don't remember the words he used, but they spoke directly to my heart, filled my eyes with tears, and gave my soul a confirmation.
I thanked him for saying just what I needed to hear.
After lunch I walked down to the Breitenbush river~ just a short ways down a trail and across a footbridge. I laid on a flat rock that ran down to the water, took off my shirt, and felt the warmth of the sun on my breasts. The sound of the river rushing by filled me with such peace and gratitude. Every once in a while the water would splash up onto my feet, as if to say hello. What a beautiful connection!
Tuesday, May 1
Last night after dinner I decided to play the piano in the lodge library. My new friends, Fred and Jeff wanted to hear me. Soon the room was full of people listening to me play and sing. I am so thankful for my gift of music and for the chance to share it in a place as beautiful as this. I played for one and a half hours. It felt so great.
Then Jeff, Fred and I went to the medicine wheel tubs.
I have had such a great time getting to know them. Jeff comes here a couple of times a year, flying in from Dallas, Texas. He is my age, and so full of peaceful, spiritual energy. Just before coming here this time he was at a workshop with the Dalai Lama, whom he has seen many times.
Jeff and I connected on a humorous level and have laughed a lot together.
Fred is older than me and lives in Portland. He is a free spirit who has truly learned to love life.
After we were in the tubs awhile Jeff and I walked up to the lodge to get their friend Lynn, who is teaching a three-day workshop here. We all visited in the tubs until midnight.
I had another restful night of sleep here in the forest.
This morning after breakfast Lynn played a couple of songs on the piano in the lodge lobby. She is an amazing pianist. Both were songs she wrote. The second one had a line that spoke directly to me. She said:
I've always had my spirit
But I forgot about my soul.
That certainly describes my feelings in my life right now!
After one last soak, Jeff and Fred had to get on their way. How blessed I am to have met the two of them. I know people come into our lives for a reason, and at the right time. Surely these two are blessings in mine.
We hugged goodbye, and though I have only known them less than 48 hours, it felt like leaving long time friends.
I will stay here a while longer and then make the three-hour journey back home.
What an amazing retreat it has been!
Far Away....Up Close
Far Away…Up Close
Wrapped in each other’s arms
I felt you up close,
the hearts of two friends becoming one.
I tried to memorize
the smell of your skin,
the feeling of our love,
the reflection of moonlight on your hair.
I did my best to hold on to these
knowing that soon they would fade away,
knowing that each hour closer to morning
took you further away from me.
Up close,
I said a prayer of thanks
that we could have this time together,
then waited for the new day
to take you far away.
Rishell Graves
April 5, 2007
Wrapped in each other’s arms
I felt you up close,
the hearts of two friends becoming one.
I tried to memorize
the smell of your skin,
the feeling of our love,
the reflection of moonlight on your hair.
I did my best to hold on to these
knowing that soon they would fade away,
knowing that each hour closer to morning
took you further away from me.
Up close,
I said a prayer of thanks
that we could have this time together,
then waited for the new day
to take you far away.
Rishell Graves
April 5, 2007
Fairy Tales
Fairy Tales
I no longer believe in fairy tales.
I gave up on prince charming years ago.
I have learned to build my own castles and
I no longer believe in fairy tales.
I gave up on prince charming years ago.
I have learned to build my own castles and
battle my dragons alone.
While I doubt the existence of "happily ever after",
I still believe that we should grab onto
what ever happiness the universe sends our way.
I know that love is the greatest gift we have,
and that it is meant to be shared.
And in doing so, we can create daily
our own beautiful "once upon a time"....
Rishell
February 23, 2007
Heaven
Heaven
Looking into your eyes
I see the reflection of God.
Your arms wrap around me
like the wings of an angel.
You are the closest thing
to Heaven
that I have ever felt.
Rishell
Jan. 12, 2007
Looking into your eyes
I see the reflection of God.
Your arms wrap around me
like the wings of an angel.
You are the closest thing
to Heaven
that I have ever felt.
Rishell
Jan. 12, 2007
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